Rock Gods

I should be studying, btw Happy Deepavali to all who ventures here. Finals are less than 2 weeks more and I m still not in that mood, which is stupid considering the amount of stuff i need to cover for the exam. Aih.... and the fact that I am going through all my rock songs dont help either, all keep transporting me to another land. Rock and Fantasy literature go so well. Try listening to Temple of the King by Rainbow, Battle of Evermore by Led zepp and Rain Song by Led Zepp too, its justs takes you away. Heck most classic rock stuff does that to me. Every pluck, every strum, every beat of the drums or the resonance of the bass, takes me away, it makes me feel so deep and it gives me alot of hope. Of course the vocals always gives you that final effect that completes the spiriting away, especially if it's Robert Plant, David Gilmour, Mr Hendrix and Mr Jagger. Rock is beautiful, well at least classic Rock, at least their songs were unique and their words meant something. It was all from the heart after all. Well I better stop rambling and get back to work. I will see you all at the end of the Stairway. Take care

Restless in Cafe del Mar

Yes that is what I am listening to as I jot this piece down. Just so restless, have been like this for so long. Which is weird, cause things are all going well now. I feel so at home here, I am much closer to my friends, it feels so much like family, studies goin ok, but yet, aih. I am dreading the fact that some of my good friends are graduating end of this semester and leaving for good next march. We ve come to be such a close knit bunch. I m just worried of losing this wondeful comraderie we ve built over these past few months. Some of my friends here keep telling me its all good and tt I should not worry so much bout such things, cos it happens all the time in life, but all my life I ve been dreading this sorta stuff. It happened when I left sec school, when I left home for uni, when I parted with friends during camps or jamborees, but in all cases things always seemed to turn out better after all of it. Despite knowing this, I still get all restless and feeling crappy thinking about stuff in the future. I ll just have to brave on i guess and make the most of it for now and spend as much time as I can with my pals. Its times like this, u just feel so thankful for being alive. Its all happening......

Road Trip pt 2

Ok, terribly sorry for the delay in getting on with this post, been pretty busy.
We left sunday (2/10) at 6 pm in the morning. We rented 2 cars, a camry and an elantra. I sat in the camry and was the designated navigator, but did fall asleep once in awhile. I went with our Murdoch Malaysian Association committee, there were 9 of us. We drove 850 km north of perth to a quaint fishing town called Denham. The drive took about 9 hours and what a drive it was. As we drove along, we saw how the landscapes changed. First it was normal highway, then we hit the wineries, then the farms and finally the Real Outback, the sorta stuff you see in movies, with kangaroo carcasses lying here and there and miles and miles of road in front of you. The best was seeing where the desert ended and the sea began, it was pretty awe inspiring.
We stayed at a backpacker's lodge, vey nice accomodation with the beach in front. I wont go into all the nitty gritty details. The highlights were seeing the dolphins upclose, Serena managed to feed them, lucky girl. We also went sailing on this huge catamaran to see dugongs. Philip, Justin and myself managed to help to draw the sail, which was pretty cool. We learned to fish courtesy of Philip, I caught my first crab, using a stick and a bucket, unfortunately it died before we could take it back. Philip got some fish. We just lounged by the beach for the first day. All our meals were prepared by us, with Ying Yu doing the menu. We also went to shell beach, where it full of shells everywhere. We went Little Lagoon for more fishing and swimming. The weather was simply lovely, nice and hot compared to the cold clammy wind in Perth.
Every night we went for walks by the beach. On our second night, we joined these 2 old fishermen looking for squid, he kinda taught us how to catch it and clean it. The guy was so generous, he gave us 2 squids to take back. The next day I cleaned it, crumbed it and fried it as Fried Calamari Rings for our last night BBQ, which also heavenly. After BBQ, we drove out 20 km from our resort and got into this public hot tub, in the middle of nowhere. It was pitch black, and we only had the stars to illuminate us. It was lovely, we saw Scorpio, Orion, and the Southern Cross and also countless shooting stars.
Apart from the highlights, the thing I enjoyed the most was the comraderie. We got really close, and we opened up during the trip to each other. We would stay up at night and get to know each other better and deeper, thanks to Esther who kept dishing out all these deep questions that kinda really made us ponder about ourselves. I cant really describe it in words, it was magic and everything went so well. These are friendships I will cherish all my life just like the memories of the trip. I am truly fortunate to have gone for this trip with such a fine bunch. I really love you guys. Thanks for all the good times. Philip, thanks for organising this trip and for being like a big brother to all of us. To the rest, Mei Theng, Ying Yu, Ainul, Esther, Anhui, Justin and Serena, thanks for everything, you guys are a special bunch. Even now I long to go back to Denham with you guys. every time I will be thinking, ''Ok last week, this time we were doing this and this, etc". Even now, it is so hard to come back to reality and it is kinda depressing, but we will always have each other and our memories, and that is definitely a comforting thought isn't it? Heaven is truly in Denham, but only if you guys are there.

Road Trip

I ve just got back from the greatest road trip of my life with one of the greatest bunch of friends a guy could have. Enough said. I am damn tired and will go into all the lovely details very soon enough. My life has been changed enormously by this and in a very good way. Till the next post, keep dreaming.

Electrical storm

I think from now on, i ll just title my post according to what song I was listening to when i wrote my crap. I ve just got 2 months left till my 1st yr ends. I really cant wait, but am enjoying myself here too. Everything has kinda fallen into perspective here. Exams ends on 23rd of nov, getting a 26th flight back. Lots of things are gonna happen when i get back, apart from all the fun i m gonna have, but will not bother planning, as I have learned that being impromptu is the best and it is def more fun. I am really gonna spend time with my family and friends. Nothing like being with them. Well ya tts bout it i guess, going road trip this weekend up north as next week is 1 week hols, so gonna enjoy, then when come back, must gear up for finals, i really wanna ace my anatomy, as that is giving me hell now. Well tts bout it folks, keep dreaming

Running In th Rain

When life seems cramped
And all you you do is worry bout whether you can hand in the next assignment,
Run in the rain.

When you are frustrated about love,
Or worry you will never find it,
Run in the rain

When everyone seems to have abandoned you,
Or you feel all alone in a packed room,
Run in the rain.

Oklah that was some crappy amateur poetry, but I full advise anyone who feels down and stressed to take a chance and go a run in the rain. Everything always seems clearer to me after a run, but even clearer after a run in the rain. So go ahead and step out of that hole you ve been hiding in, and let your feet do the talking.

Almost Halfway

Well its almost end of september, that means I ve reached the halfway mark for the end of semester. Only about 2 months plus before I go back. Just had some pretty hectic weeks, but its all good, now a bit more relaxed, just a few more assignments left to hand in. Back to feeling restless, haven ran in ages, feel really bad about it, will pick it up. Had a vet quiz night last fri, it was bloody amazing, had lots of fun. Going for the Perth Royal Show this sun. Malaysia is the guest nation, so the MMA committee members have been invited to attend it. Its an annual thing and one of the biggest events in Perth. ITs basically one big carnival. Should be fun. Ah crap I just test drove a friend's car. He just bought it. Damn I miss my car. Its just a wira aeroback, but we ve been through so much, that car and me; driving my drunk friends home, going to klang for breakfast every sun, driving aimlessly with friends in KL at 4 in the morn, driving to Gentings at 6 am on New Year's Morn. Aih, any ride in that car was an experience, mainly because of the music, it was either Led Zeppelin, or Sting n the Police or the Who or Fleetwood Mac. Aih, must do a road trip with that baby and some friends when I get back. Cant wait...Keep Dreaming

Hurt

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hold
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
[Chorus:]What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes awayIn the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughtsI cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone elseI am still right here
[Chorus:]What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes awayIn the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Johnny Cash a.k.a The Man in Black
I think this is the saddest song ever written. He took it from the band Nine-Inch Nails and turned it into a ballad. He sang it just after his wife died. The man himself died in 2003. He was a strong crusader for the little man, men put behind bars unjustly. He always wore black, thus his nickname. So continues his legacy. Just listen to this song.

Spring....ya rite!

Oklah, maybe I should not be complaining. Being whinny is not me. But seriously winter has gone on too long. All the flowers are in bloom, you practically taste the pollen (which explains my damn cold and sore throat), but yet it is still bloody cold. The wind outside now is howling away like a pack of rabid wolves. I wont be surprise to see a fallen tree tomorrow. So anyway I feel like crapp, not only cos of the cold but because of all the work I am buried in. I ve got a reading log due on Wed, a lab report for fri and 2 lovely tests next week, plus they are tests for the harder subjects, Mammalian anatomy and Cell Bio. Aih, on top of that, next week is multicultural week, in which the Malaysian association is quite actively involved in. It is alot I guess, but in a way its kinda like checking to see if I am alive. I read once that most people dont feel like their alive, cos their life is so jaded and they are pretty stoned with their lives. So getting sick, and getting stressed are ways to show that I am living. The best part is that I know it cant get any worst (I hope), so what awaits me on the other side must be very worth the discomfort I am feeling now. Ok I think I am rambling on a bit too much. Anyway, here is to spring and to all of you who bother reading this and actually giving comments. Thanks Gaik Ping and sueann for your comments. Hope you all doing well. Will give you all a shout when I am done with all my crap. To everyone else, keep dreaming.

Wish You Were Here

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a cool breeze? Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year, running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears, wish you were here.

Pink Floyd
One of their greatest songs. Just go and listen to it

Merdeka

Yes ,once again I know it has been too long since last post. Anyway to keep it in a nut shell, has the merdeka dinner last wed. Took only 2 weeks of organizing, but it pulled through in the end. It was a superb night. Cant describe it seriously, just pure magic. Had so much of fun, I lost my voice and my health, but its all good and I would def do it a 1000 times over. So now its back again to studies. Feeling restless again, just feel like doing more. Just cant wait to go back end of the year ,keep thinking of my cousin's wedding and all the fun we gonna have. Well that aside for now, I got lots of catching up to do with my work, due to the merdeka commitments. Well its just a short post. Take care and keep dreaming.

So far....

I know I ve been quite slack in posting my blogs, but sometimes no mood lah. Anyway, today is a good day to blog. Its raining like hell outside and I am a bit drunk on a cocktail of U2, Coldplay, Bryan Adams and The Corrs, while doing my damn lab reports as well as preparing for my Bioethics presentation tomorrow, which is on veal. Check the site www.noveal.org So far all is good, manage to avoid procrastinating this week n avoid being buried in a pile of work. Dissections going well. Just found that I can take the live greyhounds from the vet hospital for walks. So every thurs, a few 1st yr vets including myself take them for walks. I got a nice fella by the name of Jester. Wah its heaven. we even tested their running, walau these fellas can run man. Also playing badminton and floorball (like hockey a bit) every fri, as well as frisbee every monday. So quite active lah i guess. This sat, going Perth zoo with my sis n some friends. Everytih ng just feels comfortable now. My room is all dark except for my table light, the mini lava lamp and the glow of my computer, its raining outside. I ve always imagined a moment like this.
Another this I am beginning to wonder is that whether I have an alcohol problem. Its funny, cos when I was young, I use detest alcoholics but now i drink like a fish. I ve been trying to cut down, but not putting enuf effort in to it. I must cut down, seriously. I can already hear the laughter of those who know me better, but I am serious about it. We ll see how it goes. Talked to mum yesterday. She is going to India tomorrow, really miss her, felt it even more after talking to her.
Past few days, I ve just been getting restless, dunno if its the weather, speaking of which, it has been raining like hell n getting colder, even though its approaching end of winter. I do miss home, my family especially my cousins and my friends back home, especially a certain someone, heheh, but its not so bad this semester. Maybe it's because I ve got more things to do, studies, sports, The Malaysian association, plus I also feel more at home now, which is good. Nevertheless, I know when I go back end of this year, its gonna be bang, a very loud one, heheh. well thats all I guess, Do take care, and don't stop dreaming.

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,and remember what peace there may be in silence.As far as possible without surrenderbe on good terms with all persons.Speak your truth quietly and clearly;and listen to others,even the dull and the ignorant;they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,they are vexations to the spirit.If you compare yourself with others,you may become vain and bitter;for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.Exercise caution in your business affairs;for the world is full of trickery.But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;many persons strive for high ideals;and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself.Especially, do not feign affection.Neither be cynical about love;for in the face of all aridity and disenchantmentit is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,gracefully surrendering the things of youth.Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.Beyond a wholesome discipline,be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe,no less than the trees and the stars;you have a right to be here.And whether or not it is clear to you,no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,whatever you conceive Him to be,and whatever your labors and aspirations,in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,it is still a beautiful world.Be cheerful.Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann

Tequila

The past 2 nites (Thurs n Fri), have been crazy. Thurs went to tavern as Jimi Hendrix, met alot of the new students, finally got Josh to drink, danced with a few lovely ladies, laughed my head n ass off. Best part, was that I had an 830 class next morning followed immediately by a lab. Woke up with a damn gruff voice, as I have been having a bitch of a sore throat since Monday, plus the booze and shouting didnt help it. Also had a splitting headache, sux big time. Came back after lab n knocked off in my room. Woke up at 4 and did some cleaning up, read Shantaram, which is a bloody good book, played some games, chatted with div, then got ready to go out to Freo to watch my favourite live band, Felix. Had dinner first with josh, mei theng and joanne at some pasta shop. Felix was bloody good, plus Lisa, my favourite bassist, was as mesmerising as ever. drank a bit with Josh, but didnt get tipsy, it was more of the music that got me in the mood to jump and sing my ass. Once again, throat has gotten even worse, just hope I don't lose my voice. It already sounds gruff as hell. But it was good. Then went to Harbourside after Felix ended, cos Ben , josh and the girls wanted to dance to RnB, I just chilled at the bar, taking it easy with sprite n red bull, cos I will always be a Rocker, n RnB isnt my kinda stuff. Then went Hungry Jacks, and ate while laughing at each other, namely I got it the worst, due to some bad joke of a botanical nature, ...............nvm. It was a good 2 nite release I guess. Now I shall officially start the wonderful process of cramming my head with Veterinary anatomy, namely the dog and cow. But its all good, cos its all interesting, not some crappy uneccesary crap like learning bout some Religion and all their damn prophets. Well thats bout, my throat feels numb, and thats not good, I need my sleep. It is gonna be a busy month, not to mention a busy semester. Aih, cheerio. Oh ya, before I forget, on 27th of August, Mars is gonna be damn bloody close to the Earth. Apparently if u look at the sky that night, you can see Mars ver clearly as it will be almost the moon's size. Do bear in mind, that the next time this happens, it will be bout 250 years from now, so do cherish it folks. Chow

El condor pasa

Hmmm, its been over month since last posting. Had a blast in Malaysia. Drank toddy wth my friends and ate tom yam fishballs. Best of all is that I got into vet. Sadly, it is beginning to dawn on me, how tough it ll be to get thru this course and am beginning to dread all that studying, but as my good friend jasong heng said, 'Aiyoh you wanted rite, so work for it lah'. Thus is the wisdom of my friend. Anyway looking forward to studying, as weird as it may sound, gonna be cutting up a greyhound this semester, but what ever it is I can't wait to get back home for my cousin's wedding. It is god to see my friends here in Perth again, most of all it is good to see my dear sis who is doin really well. Well life is good....at least for now. Over the past month I really have learned hell lot about myself, my weakness, my strengths, my wishes, my dreams, my desires and so on, but at the end of it I just don't bother writing a thesis on myself, and rather let life take it's course and just go with the flow. Well thats bout it for now.

More thoughts

Recently, I have just been having more dreams about home, some of them are about things that have happened, and some of them about things that I want to happen. A common thing is that all dreams start out with me and my friends (PA), and usually ends with my mum or my sis's face. I also have been thinking about her alot, I really do miss her. I ve 2 more papers, one this sat and another next tue. This will basically determine if I get into vet. I have also started thinking of contingency plans if I don't get in, which really does scare me. All I want is to do well, earn alot and have a family as a young dad. I see how much my dad spends on me and my sis, its bloody scary, I just wanna be able to do that for my kids. Apart from that, I also wanna enjoy my youth and just travel , don't care if it means travelling to Ipoh or even JB. The amount of work that ties me down, just kills me sometimes, and I am only in first yr. I gotta work next year and see all of Australia, then move on to other countries, namely Greece, France and India. These are the dreams I want to make real. But till then, I gotta live in the moment and work my ass off. Here's to all of our dreams.

Thoughts

I am 20 years old now. I have more than enough dreams to fulfill, but what bothers me is that will I ever fulfill them all (well at least the important ones). I am one who is not a religious person but one who believes in God. I am very aware of my mortality and the mortality of my friends and family. Sometimes I just feel one lifetime is never enough and sometimes I feel like I have lived 3 lifetimes continuosly. I don't know if it's the exam blues speaking or just some supressed part of me speaking, but thinking of such things always leaves me with mixed feelings. For me I always wish I could be stuck in certain moments. Like life in secondary school, especially in form 4 n 5, Camping with my friends in Pangkor, Going on scout trips, Getting drunk with my best friends, Celebrating my uncle's wedding, laughing my guts out with my sister. The damn list goes on. I will never come to grips with life and death and that is pretty much the thing I fear the most, but thats life as redundant as it may sound. Right now, I am just glad I have my family, friends and most importantly my dreams of my future.

Study, study!!!!!, Why can't I just be a rock star??/

Hey ho,
This be my first post for my new blog. Well just got up about 3 hours ago, its about 6 p.m. now and it's bloody cold. Temperature is about 7 degrees, but the worst is still the wind. Daily routine for this past week (study week) has been study till 6 am, sleep till 3 or 4 p.m and then repeat. Too lazy to bloody shave, so been growing a nice stubble (What else is new?) Exams on Monday and flying back on the 22nd, wohooo!!!! All I have now is my beautiful music and friends, thats all I bloody need. Well thats bout it for now, gotta hit the books again. Au Revoir

Are you a lucky little lady in the city of lights? Or just another lost angel?