Thoughts

I am 20 years old now. I have more than enough dreams to fulfill, but what bothers me is that will I ever fulfill them all (well at least the important ones). I am one who is not a religious person but one who believes in God. I am very aware of my mortality and the mortality of my friends and family. Sometimes I just feel one lifetime is never enough and sometimes I feel like I have lived 3 lifetimes continuosly. I don't know if it's the exam blues speaking or just some supressed part of me speaking, but thinking of such things always leaves me with mixed feelings. For me I always wish I could be stuck in certain moments. Like life in secondary school, especially in form 4 n 5, Camping with my friends in Pangkor, Going on scout trips, Getting drunk with my best friends, Celebrating my uncle's wedding, laughing my guts out with my sister. The damn list goes on. I will never come to grips with life and death and that is pretty much the thing I fear the most, but thats life as redundant as it may sound. Right now, I am just glad I have my family, friends and most importantly my dreams of my future.