More thoughts

Recently, I have just been having more dreams about home, some of them are about things that have happened, and some of them about things that I want to happen. A common thing is that all dreams start out with me and my friends (PA), and usually ends with my mum or my sis's face. I also have been thinking about her alot, I really do miss her. I ve 2 more papers, one this sat and another next tue. This will basically determine if I get into vet. I have also started thinking of contingency plans if I don't get in, which really does scare me. All I want is to do well, earn alot and have a family as a young dad. I see how much my dad spends on me and my sis, its bloody scary, I just wanna be able to do that for my kids. Apart from that, I also wanna enjoy my youth and just travel , don't care if it means travelling to Ipoh or even JB. The amount of work that ties me down, just kills me sometimes, and I am only in first yr. I gotta work next year and see all of Australia, then move on to other countries, namely Greece, France and India. These are the dreams I want to make real. But till then, I gotta live in the moment and work my ass off. Here's to all of our dreams.

Thoughts

I am 20 years old now. I have more than enough dreams to fulfill, but what bothers me is that will I ever fulfill them all (well at least the important ones). I am one who is not a religious person but one who believes in God. I am very aware of my mortality and the mortality of my friends and family. Sometimes I just feel one lifetime is never enough and sometimes I feel like I have lived 3 lifetimes continuosly. I don't know if it's the exam blues speaking or just some supressed part of me speaking, but thinking of such things always leaves me with mixed feelings. For me I always wish I could be stuck in certain moments. Like life in secondary school, especially in form 4 n 5, Camping with my friends in Pangkor, Going on scout trips, Getting drunk with my best friends, Celebrating my uncle's wedding, laughing my guts out with my sister. The damn list goes on. I will never come to grips with life and death and that is pretty much the thing I fear the most, but thats life as redundant as it may sound. Right now, I am just glad I have my family, friends and most importantly my dreams of my future.

Study, study!!!!!, Why can't I just be a rock star??/

Hey ho,
This be my first post for my new blog. Well just got up about 3 hours ago, its about 6 p.m. now and it's bloody cold. Temperature is about 7 degrees, but the worst is still the wind. Daily routine for this past week (study week) has been study till 6 am, sleep till 3 or 4 p.m and then repeat. Too lazy to bloody shave, so been growing a nice stubble (What else is new?) Exams on Monday and flying back on the 22nd, wohooo!!!! All I have now is my beautiful music and friends, thats all I bloody need. Well thats bout it for now, gotta hit the books again. Au Revoir

Are you a lucky little lady in the city of lights? Or just another lost angel?